DEAR DIARY

chitchattictac @ 2009-11-15T21:14:00

2009-11-16T02:14:05Z

Ugh, who am I supposed to talk to??

long time no see, my brotha

2009-10-24T22:25:16Z

So I've been bouncing around from site to site... nothing had really stuck. Oh yeah, even that "I'll post a picture a day!" thing. And I clearly remember trying to devote myself to it. It'd be a lot easier if I had an iPhone or something that has a camera and web thing in one...

Nothing really to say. Life's fun. Though I believe I'm talking behind people's backs too much, resulting in BAD KARMA!! So I've got to stop that. But the problem is, I don't really want to bottle stuff up or else my anger will grow exponentially. But I don't really want to say it to their face becaues they'll just get angry and so nothing good really happens.

See I'm bored typing about my life.

rocky mountains

2009-09-28T19:09:58Z

So yeah, I've got acne/pimple problems now.
Allll over my forehead, nose, around one of my eyes, and a bunch in random places.

What the crap is happening.

jpjp

2009-09-10T02:05:38Z

uhhhhhh

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picture04

2009-09-05T01:24:26Z

l8r

baby donchu?

2009-07-23T00:29:53Z

Yea, so everytime I want to write in my little journal thing, there's no computer around. But when there's one right in front of my face, I feel no urge, no need to. I'm just going to force myself to do it. THIGADGALKDJGLAKDJG.

It's only been like three days, so I hope my memory suffices.

Day One
. cell culture
. ching chong
. chomp chomp
. stone head
. spread of germs
. pokerfAce

Ah yes. So cell culture? That's basically what I'm doing. Or something like that. I was expecting to just help out cleaning flasks or wiping down some stuff, but apparently I'm not really assisting anyone, I'm just like "observing." As in, I'm supposed to be "researching" and "learning." Except for the fact tat I haven't taken biology since freshman year and not to mention I barely remember anything about it. But that's great.

REWWIIINDDD. So my dad drops me off in the morning and I'm heck nervous, carrying all my sleeping gear and stuff for the rest of the week. My aunt's supposed to come pick me up in the front and then guide me back to the research place. So eventually she comes and we first stop by the volunteer office because I have to drop of my tb test results and some identification stuff. Then I had to get taught how to sign in every morning and we follow the lady to this creepy locker room (very small) and she tells me what I need to do. Blahblah

So we get to my aunt's little office area. I don't really know what I was expecting, cubicles or whatever. But it's basically like a room. With desks and walls between each one (though I suppose you could call that a cubicle). Yup, and what I was expecting was white people. But nope. ALL CHINESE. And they're like the ones who have had children in China and have only recently moved to the US. Not like that recently, but they haven't been here as long. It was weird. And like, they've got bamboo and use glass containers as tea bottles. Some lady even has Robert Wong's (the dentist) red mini calender. But they're all like, "你好." No hello, but CHINESE GREETINGS. It was just weird. So I don't really remembered what happened, but I met these two kids (I　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｔｈｅｙ＇ｒｅ　ｓｅｎｉｏｒｓ．　Ｗｈｙ＇ｓ　ｍｙ　ｆｏｎｔ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｔｈｉｓ．）　Anyways. So yeah, one boy and one girl. The girl was a total.. FOB. Seriously. Straight, hilighted hair, ChineseFOBface, Crocs (?), leggings (ugly ones), and like some Chinese shirt. The boy seemed normal. He reminds me of Allen. Smiling all the time and even laughs the same. He's pretty nice and actually started talking to me to make me feel welcomed, and the girl's nice. Doesn't really talk to me unless it's necessary. The boy has dimples! Pretty deep ones too. But yea, I will add more about them later.

Still on the first day. So I ended up going to lunch with them. I was texting the whole time to avoid awkwardness, so that kinda made it okay. First time in the cafeteria area so I felt even more awkward, not really knowing how to get food and stuff. But eventually, I just got a bottle of water and a yogurt parfait (I wasn't really hungry). So we get like $5 credit every day towards food. That might not seem like a lot, but it actually gets you a lot of stuff. For example, CREEPY STALKER GUY (though he had not yet aquired that title) got a cheeseburger and fries for like $2.50. They have a lot of junk food, like FRIES, ONION RINGS,FRIED CHICKEN (well like chicken strips), BURGERS, ETC.ETC. So bad for you. And it doesn't really look that appetizing. It's just so... OILY. Anyways, so we paid and then I was about to like sit down at the cafeteria, but dimpleboy (I really don't know his name) said, "Oh, we usually eat at Little Caesars." So blabhablh, CREEPY STALKER GUY joins us and we go to the LC. And eat there. Very awkward. My yogurt was very sweet. So then more and more people start coming. Asain dude, two indians, another asian dude. And another one. So they ended up playing cards?!?! Me too, though. i stopped after blackjack. It was just weird. So then I went back and did more work blabhalbalbh BORING.

So then I went home with my aunt (who carpools) and I could describe the whole ride and make fun of the guy we carpool with, but I'm looking at this thing and it's already HUGE so I'll just skip that part.

Soo.... got home. My uncle cooked. Ate. Annoying (more stuff I could talk about, but I don't really know if you guys would find it interesting. I don't even know if ANY of this is interesting but OH WELL UGH I'M IRRITATED). Anyways. So after dinner, I just like... sat around..,. ended up watching TV for who knows how long. They had cable, which was a huge relief. Ended up watching some Mythbusters, cake stuff (food network), and... SKY HIGH. That was actually a pretty good movie. I had been wanting to see it for a while now, and it's pretty good. But I had never felt so alone. My aunt and uncle were like painting the house and stuff, so I had NOTHING TO DO. NO ONE TO TALK TO. It was horrible. I just felt so depressed. No stuffed animal to hug when I went to sleep... no one to talk to. Though my cousin like popped by and started talking to me WHILE I WAS WATCHING MY MOVIE. He acts all slick. Whatever, at least I can communicate to some being. But anyways, I dunno, it just felt really, really lonley. And I just wanted to go home. UGADHGUAH. I don't know what to do when I get to college.

Day Two
Frick, this thing is long. Woke up and got ready in like 5 minutes. with my slick black pants and white collared shirt (same exact thing I had worn the day before), I was done. Ate breakfast. Left to carpool. Oh yeah, this day was my BIRTHDAY. Which was a little bit disappointing because I didn't really get that many happy birthday's on facebook. I mean, I shouldn't be greedy and I sound really stupid, but it make me happy when some people take the time and just wish me a happy birtday. I guess I'm crazy.

Anyways, the two weren't here today. So this is where the creepyness begins. I got upstairs and apparently no one was there day (like those two people). So BAM, out comes creepy guy. So I was like, "oh, I remember him. e's a little weird" ('cause like, the other day he like stared at me for a while... not like .........................., but it was just like long glance. still creeped me out 'cause his eyes were like wide open). And so he's like, "what are you doing today?" And I was like, "oh, I dunno." Whatever. I forget. But I was going to the bathroom.

Anyways, it gets weirder. So then I go downstairs to go to lunch, expecting to eat alone. And then, right when I open the door to the stairways, HE'S THERE. Well like, he's coming down. And I thought he like finished lunch, but he like follows me. So then I ask if he like finished or whatever. And he's like, "no." So I was kinda thankful 'cause I had someone to eat with. Oh, but that's fine. NOT. So I look at drinks, he goes to the FRIED FOOD line and I move on to the cakes. BA,M I TURN AROUND AND HE'S LIKE GRABBING AT THEM. And I was like, WTF. HOW ARE YOU HERE. WENRE'T YOU OVER THERE. WTF. It was creepy. So then we paid and then WENT TO LITTLE CASERS?!?! I just think it's stupid to go all the way over there. Anyways, yeah. I got some a ham&cheese sandwhich lunch box, smart popcorn thing, and water (that the lady forgot to charge me, but that's okay). So we get there (at LC)... and no one's there. I'm like, eh, that's okay. NO IT'S NOT. So I'm being friendly, he's being friendly. He's a little weird, I think, but that's okay. It's company and a "FRIEND." Yeah. So then some other kid comes and then another. Apparently everyone was eating in te cafeteria, so we move. And i leave after because other "possee memebes" arrive and there wen're really any seats. So I was going back alone, and I throw something away. I turn around. Guess who it is?

COMING OUT OF NO WHERE. POPPING OUT AND APPARENTLY FOLLOWING ME?!! THAT CREEPY GUY!!! I'm like, oh please, leave me alone. And at this point, I'm getting a little freaked out. And previously, he was talkibng about how he was going to watch a rat sacrifice and I was like, " I kinda wanna see." But then, at that point, I was like... no thanks. So then i went upstairs and my aunt had to transfer someting, so I had to go and watch. Guess who's STILL NEAR ME. That's stupid creeepy guy. And so my aunt's explaining stuff and WTF HE PUTS HIS ELBOW ON MY SHOULDER AND LEANS AGAINST ME?!?! WTF?!?! I'M LIKE (in my head) GET YOUR FREAKING GRUBBY PAWS OFF OF ME YOU CREEP. And so I pretend to be "interested" in something and lean, so his arm falls off. Whew. But wtf, he's STANDING SO CLOSE TO ME. I move, he moves. And then I sit down. AND HE LEANS AGAINST ME AGAIN. And he's a big guy, mind you. I'm liked, scared out of my wits. So then my aunt was like, "you can go to the library and come back later" 'cause we had to wait for a bit. So I'm like, "okay, this is a chance to shake him off." HAHAHAHAHAH NO. HE FREAKING FOLLOWS ME. Oh yeah, it's weird because HE LEFT HIS FRIENDS BEHIND TO FOLLOW ME (at lunch time). i MEAN, he was done eating and everything, but seriously, hang out with your pals! So anyways, I'm like, "uh dude.. I'm just going to like read at the library. Not going to do anything else. i'm going to sit . by. myself." And he's like, "that's okay, I want to know where the library is anyways." We get there, I'm like, "here's the library!" (as in, "here it is, go away, you know where it is now"), but nope, he follows me inside.

So I got to the little person cubby area, and I sit down. I'm like, "seriously, I'm just going to read. Go away." He LAUGHS AND JUST STANDS THERE HOVERING OVER ME. i'm like, wtf. There were quite a few people that day, so I didn't really want to disturb them. And I was like, "do'nt you have somwewhere to be....? go hang out with your other friends! 'cause I'm just going to read..." He leaves, i WAS RELEIVED. But then HE WAS JUST GETTING A BOOK. TO READ. WHILE STANDING, STILL HOVERING OVER ME. WTF. I kinda like ignore him, and he eventually left. Creepiest day of my life. Or so I thought.

Big space. So my parents, aunt, and cousin went to this "Japanese Buffet." It's kinda like, wtf? But when I actually went inside, it was really nice (like the furniture) and they even had the low tables where you sit on your butt and cross your legs. But in actuality, there's this hole so you can sit "comfortably." It was still fun though. And it's $17 per person for dinner, but there's a sushi buffet. And it's like, legit. SOmewhat. the people who made it were actually Japanese! And they actually had like raw fish! So good. I ate so much. I'm still full rigtht. After a lot of effort, I got a free meal 'cause it was my birthday. I also saw two chinese women with white little kids (who spoke Chinese). It was weird. So instead of staying at my aunt's house, I went home (!!HURRAY). I mean, it wasn't only 'cause I wanted to go home, bu tmy uncle's brother suddenly called earlier and he was going to be staying at their house, so I thought it'd be more convinent anyways.

Day Three.
My eyes hurt and this thing is hecka long. Today was the scariest day so far. Right when I come in to sign in, BAM, CREEP GUY'S IN THE LOCKER ROOM. With his Indian friends. One of them asked me if I knew so-ands-GuptaPuja whatever, and I waslike, "UHH NOOO....??!!?" because I was still drowsy. But then he was like, "ah, well, see you at lunch!" AND I WAS LIKE WOAH SERIOUSLAY?!??! It made me happy for a split second, but I realized creepy guy was near me. So I assumed they left after I heard the door close and signed in, and left the roomw. OH WHO'S WAITINF RO ME?!?! CREEPY UGY1! WHO'S WEARING THE SAME COLOR GREEN AS I AM1!!! HURRAY1!@!!!!! I HATE MY LIFE~~~~~!! And it's along walk fmor the locker room to the research place. OMG. I was like.... scared out of my wits. And I could see people looking at me weirdly 'cause we LOOKED ALIKE BECAUSE OF OUR CLOTHING. So I get theere, and my AUNT ISN'T THERE YET. I'm like, holy crap. what I supposed to do 'cause this kid is not leaving me alone (by te way, he's going to college next year. HArvard? No, OAKLAND. Community, I believe). So he's following me around, i'm looking for my aunt, and i'm like... let's go to the bathroom 'cause he can't follow me there. I go inside, and i'm not even peeing. I'm just like. waiting. And my aunt comes out of the stall. Weird. But i'm so thankful. She leaves first, and I'm still waiting to avoid him. Then i don't really see him so I take a different route, picking the least likely path he'd be on. All the halls are connected, so I go down a different one. Eventually get in and he's no there. So I put on my lab coat. I don't remember if this was then or later, but he somehow found me, FOLLOWED ME INTO THE OFFICE AREA WTF HE USUALLY DOESN'T AND FOLLOWS ME TO THE BACK (my aunt's got the back space) AND IS JUST LIKE STANDING THERE. I'm like, LEAVE ME ALONE. Anyways, so I'm hiding and he's not there and I'm safely in the office. And then some girl comes, introduction. And then comes the subject of that CREEP. The women were like, "yea.. that's kid's weird. i think he's retarded (sha). he doesn't even respond when you say 'hello' or something." and stuff like,

"I didn't know he could speak/understand Chinese. He's always speaking English. But then yesterday when we were killing the rat, I said "-----" and he laughed."

"Yeah, he apparently kicked my daugher's foot (the girl who was being introduced to me... FOOTSIE!??!)"
daughter: yeah, I thought it was on accident, but he kept on doing it (UM CREEP)

AUNT: yeah, yesterday he put his elbow on lucy and I was unsure of what to do..!
and then I made this disgusting face (Because I was disgusted by him) and I was like, "... yeah, he's *face*"

Anyways. I'm doing work, he comes in and he's like, "nothing to do, so I'm going to stay here and watch you do stuff." CREEPY. Then he like follows me around the room, even though it's small and I'm just getting something. And he follows me to go get ice. The ice room is like small, and he's just following me. Follow, follow, follow. But eventually the two kids come into the room and he attatches to them. WHEW. So for a while, it's just me and my aunt working on cell stuff that I don't really feel like talking about because I'ved typed so much already. I was going to ask when the two were going to lunch (not really), but creepy guy was with them, so i just went to lunch alone. There was a barbeque outside, so I ate that. Hot dog + chips + drink = $4.50 (cheap enough so I wouldn't have to pay anything).

The rest of the day was okay. Went into the dark room and developed some stuff. Yup.
So I'm tired and I bet you are too.
toodles!

lala

2009-07-21T02:30:54Z

so, because j think my iPod touch is really cool and everything, I decided not to bring my

ugh Im tired I will edit this later
. cell culture
. ching chong
. chomp chomp
. stone head
. spread of germs
. pokerfAce

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chitchattictac @ 2009-07-20T12:15:00

2009-07-20T16:18:51Z

this is not awkward at all

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i fear...

2009-07-20T00:45:15Z

Well, I suppose this marks the end of my beauutiful summer. It ended with a bang (though small, still it made a noise). ...
Yeah, okay I admit. I WAS TRYING TO BE COOL. But after sitting here for a minute, I can't think of anything to make it any less lame than that phrase is now. ANYWHO. Thanks for comin' to my birthday BASH. I express even more gratitude for assisting in the clean up :D

But that's not the point. The point is, from tomorrow, I will be BORED and will be AWKWARD and living in a shell for the following five weeks. I'm freaking out already because it's just weird. Weird being away from home and living with other people besides my parents; weird being stuck in the hospital AFTER the five required hours with no real place to go because I have to wait for my aunt to finish working (as I'll be living in her house)... maybe I'll just sit around.... look weird.... doing nothing....; weird eating lunch by myself?! I don't even know what to expect. I'm just living in the fear of being ALONE and BORED and the WEIRDNESS OF IT ALL.

I have many more worries/paranoid thoughts, but I'll spare ya'llz.

toodles

aar

2009-07-17T01:38:53Z

Truth be told, I miss you. And trut be told, I'm LYING.
doodooodoo

when you see my face
I hope if gives you hell.
doooo

i hope it gives youuu hellll~~~

DANGNABITTHIS FRAEKING SONG AS BEEN STUCK IN MY HEAD ALL DAY.

oh deer lord

2009-07-15T01:53:05Z

Hello, how are you. I think my heart's pumping (well it is, but more than usual).
Is it weird to friend members of a band? 'Cause I just did, and it feels so very...

AWKWARD.

I mean, getting some weird person adding you as a friend would freak me out. NOOO. That means they won't friend me back! I'm a loser! And a creep. Anyways, moving on. Now that I've got that off my chest.

Okay so I've been doing nothing again. I feel like the laziest person on earth. Sitting around all day, eat a meal, sit some more, stare at a computer, wait for parents to come home, watch stupid tv shows, etc.etc.etc. This is just wonderful. But that's okay. Because this week will be my last free week (which is actually a big relief). Next week I start volunteering! And living abroad! More like at my aunt's house, but I'm going to pretend I'm living in Europe (or China). So anyways, sihzzamihzam. I'll be working in some research department. I think I'm going to be in neurology research deparement. I don't really know. But I'm going back to the hospital place and getting my health clearance. And then I'M GOING TO GO TO THE SECURITY PLACE AND GET MY PICTURE TAKEN FOR AN ID BADGE HARARAR.

Well, I'm off.
toodles!

so that's how it's going to be

2009-07-12T23:22:14Z

Well, after staying up until 3:45am, I have decided not to get my ears pierced until I'm 23 (old enough and hopefully brave enough to walk into a professional piercer/tattoo parlor). Man, those professional pierce people realllly hate Claires.

uh, i'll finish this later

ringing in my ears

2009-07-12T07:08:07Z

I think I'll just stick to sticker earrings...

(this comes after hours of watching videos of people getting their ears pierced at claires, looking up cleaner, more professional places, reading hundreds of comments, reading lots of comments about how claires sucks, more about how claires RoX<33 and what not, watching boys get their ears pierced at claires, and watching people hug that ugly black bear.)

sore LOSER

2009-07-10T19:52:38Z

Ugh my body's sore. Not because I actually did something yesterday, but because I HATE MY BED.

It's too soft. The mattress must be too soft, because my body ends up resting in odd, uncomfortable, bendy positions. I want to sleep like a log. Like a flat piece of wood. Like a log. More like a horizontal line. Rather than some zig-zag, spagetti shape. I bet I sleep like that. The same shape as a string of spagetti dropped on the floor. I CAN'T STAND THIS ANYMORE. I need one of those firm beds. I think I'm going to sleep on the floor again. Like I did that one vacation. It's actually really fun. You guys should try it. I had some pictures, but then I DID SOMETHING STUPID AND SOMETHING I WOULD RATHER NOT TALK ABOUT IT BECAUSE IT PAINS ME.

Anyways, that's a good idea. I'm going to sleep on the floor because my back cannot take it any longer.

sounds painful

2009-07-10T18:38:27Z

I want my ears pierced. My mom says it's okay, my dad even said it was okay, BUT I CAN'T SAY OKAY. It just sounds... so painful...

I'm not talking about that point where the needle or earring or whatever PIERCES THROUGH YOUR EAR, TEARING PIECES OF TISSUE APART AND DESTROYING ANY COHESION BETWEEN THE PIECES OF SKIN. I'm talking about like... cleaning all the ears, TWISTING te earring to make sure it doesn't get stuck, THE WORRY OF IT GETTING STUCK, the worry of it getting infected... and getting scarred!?!

WHAT IS THIS "KELOID" THING!??! I DON'T WANT THIS!! IT'S GROSS!!

Man, I just was like, "I'LL GET MY EARS PIERCED" but now after seeing this KELOID, I'm freaked out.

And they had a cool starter earring I wanted.
UGGADGDUGG. MY BODY IS PROBABLY NOT READY FOR ANY FOREIGN SUBSTANCES.

danielle doppler

2009-07-10T03:24:04Z

Apparnetly it's a "delightful evening." (says Chuck the weatherman)
EL NINO HAS FORMED?! WELL...

let's blame it on el nino and la nina
for this crazy blablahba
we'll blame it on el nino and la nina
albahblabalbbalb

So anyways, I'm very proud of myself. I fixed my left key thing on my laptop. It's been making this annoying clicking noise, but that sound is now NO MORE. MUAHAAA. Now just to fix this stupid hh key.

T-Max came out with a new mini-album! It's weird because it's a singles collection, with each of the members singing a song by themselves (weird). Can you imagine woobin singing? I know he raps... OH WELL. My mom's staring at me and it's kinda creepy...

Oh yeah, i put these little stickers on my keyboard that tell me the korean alphabet keyboard. Sweeto. WHO SAID MY SUMMER WAS UNPRODUCTIVE?!?! Anyways, I'm bored.

toodles!

in the club

2009-07-08T23:56:42Z

I have no idea why I'm posting so much.

Maybe it's because I'M BORED OUTTA MY MIND. I've wasted today, yesterday, and Monday. So I suppose this is the "turning point" where I now focus on SAT and reading that book about Jefferson and Sally. I will turn this unproductive summer around. I will. I have the will. My friend's name is Will. Will I be able to do it?

Dang, these mosquito bites are killing me. I've scratched my skin raw! It's like really soft and smooth, but only for a small section. And then, there's this giant bump that irritates me to no end. I hate mosquitos. And I have this fear that I'm going to get West Nile or North Nile from one of these blood-sucking creatures. They're not even like good looking (vampires)! They're simply pests meant to MAKE US HUMANS FEEL INFERIOR AND BOTHERED.

No matter what amount of Tiger balm or poop paste you put on it (or spit?) IT'LL NEVER STOP. THIS PAIN AND ANNOYANCE IS EVERLASTING. And just today, it started turning orange. This like really neon orange. But of course, after scratching it, it turned right back to that BIG RED BLOB OF IRRITATION. Did you know there's a trick to getting rid of dark circles when applying concealer or whatever? You first put orange lipstick then then concealer because the "orange cancels out the blue." Wonder if it works.

I changed my livejournal to japanese. Maybe I'll further my knowledge of the language. But than again, I'm so used to te controls that I don't really have to read anything. Maybe. Because now that I look at that little gray box below, there's something for "ADULT CONTENT." Dang, what do Japanese people post!??

I need to start tagging my things. It makes it look more interesting. More organized!

toodles!

where there is love...

2009-07-07T19:59:55Z

dang nabit. these freaking mosquito bites are killing me. i swear they multiple overnight or something. And that stupid tiger balm stuff DOES NOT WORK. It just burns my eyes and has a strong smell. MY ENTIRE ANKLE IS RED and I kinda want to chop that part off. BAM.

Today was MJ's funeral/memorial thing. At first, I was like, "I should watch this out of respect for an icon." But then, as I watched it, I started CRYING (?!!) because so many people like cared for him and he was like this "door-opener" for many people. (He even influenced SHINee). But really, Michael Jackson was loved! (and still is)

This one part killed me: .. when Stevie Wonder was like, "this was a day I was hoping I wouldn't live to see."
and then Brooke Shields started talking about when he and her were kids just laughing a lot.

R.I.P. Michael Jackson
1958-2009

seriously?

2009-07-03T13:43:21Z

really... he NEEDS TO STOP. I mean, basically every single status I put, he commented.

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chitchattictac @ 2009-07-01T22:24:00

2009-07-02T02:26:56Z

he needs to stop commenting on my status

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today

2009-06-25T22:28:31Z

today was funny. I dunno, my jaws hurt cause I was laughing so much .

so today was one of those whole-day SAT class things. wake up and then get there at 9 in the morning, leave at five in the afternoon. so while we were taking the diagnostics rest, the teach fell asleep. and started snoring... it was so funny. like, she was making irregular sounds and I really couldn't stop (quietly) laughing. too bad no one else was (I felt a bit mean, but I couldn't help it. so yup. funny thing number one.

well she bought us pizza for lunch (as like a party for finishing the class thing). but we got on the topic of that 5-hour energy drink and someone mentioned monster. so the teach was like, "that stuff us disgusting. you know it has bull semen in it."

so then this guy was like, "haha you have like little bulls in hour stomach." HAHAHA. dude.

okay yeah it doesn't sound as cool as it did, but whatever. we basically did nothing and played outside the whole time (while it was raining). it was so freaking hilarious.

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frick monkeys

2009-06-23T21:08:42Z

I'm so pissed off. I can't go to U of M.
Because that freaking girl with the same name as me is there.
Freaking annoying.

I keep getting all these invites and cards from other people that are intended for her. What the effing heck.
It's not even my fault! Her address isn't even in the freaking directory!! I guess she chose to freaking disclose it, but WTF.

So now I guess this is motivation to go somewhere better than U of M, but seriously.
She has (basically) the same name, we go/went to the same highschool. They're so obviously going to get confused.

hello, my name is failure

2009-06-17T23:55:16Z

Well, I failed sophmore year.

THREE B'S. I tried so hard. And I failed. Actually, I take that back. I didn't try hard. And this is what I get as punishment. I think it's impossible for me to get into U of M at this point. Because my SAT scores suck too. You know what? I just suck in general. What am I going to EFFING DO.

no money

2009-06-14T21:07:15Z

I just realized how fast you can spend money. Seriously.

I had 100 bucks (from a bet) at the beginning of the summer. And only after two movies, I'm down to like 70 bucks. What the crap! Where'd those thirty dollars go?!!? I know Lulu owes me 7.50, so I guess it's more of a WHERE'D THE OTHER 23 SOMETING BUCKS GO!?

Star Trek: 5.00
Popcorn: $0 (lulu paid)

UP: 7.50 (or was it .25?... stupid 3D glasses)
Popcorn: 8.50 (I paid) - 1.00 (tracey's share)

so that adds up to 20 bucks... where'd the other three dollars go.
I guess it's not that much when I break it down, but still. From 100 bucks to 70 is quite shocking and it makes me SAD.

I really need to earn a lot of money when I'm older.

byebye summer ~~

2009-06-11T23:42:16Z

GUGAHGHGHA.

So my summer basically ends this weekend. Yessiree bob. SAT classes start, then there's driving, then there's FIVE FREAKING WEEKS AT MY AUNT'S HOUSE/HOSPITAL TO WORK. I HAVE TO LIVE WITH MY UNCLE, AUNT, AND COUSIN(!!!) FOR FIVE WEEKS!! IT'S LIKE A FREAKING HOME STAY BUT WORSE.

Ugh. I've never been with them for more than like eight hours. But now... ughag.
It's not like they're mean or something (on the contrary, they're very nice) but... I'VE NEVER BEEN WITH THEM FOR THAT LONG!! AND IT'S AWKWARD (well I'm awkward). BUT SERIOUSLY.